You know I forget how good I have it sometimes. I get frustrated when things aren’t going my way and think life is just not fair sometimes. I must stop and remind myself life is absolutely amazing and going exactly the way it is supposed to. If everything was always perfect you wouldn’t appreciate the good. When you begin to feel like life is just throwing obstacles at you, just remember, it always gets worse before it gets better. Smile and remember the happiness is just right around the corner. Don’t lose faith and stay positive. Negative thoughts will only bring more negative things your way. Thoughts become things, things we create. The mind is a very powerful thing. If we think about something hard enough we find a way to make it happen. This is why we set goals. When you make a plan and work towards it, the outcome is usually what you thought would happen. Say it will and it will but say it won’t and it damn sure won’t. My life is so good and I can not complain. Sure, life isn’t always fair but it’s just the right fairness you need. Some have wealth without happiness and others have nothing but are happy. Life is what you make it. Don’t be so hard on yourself. I was so stressed earlier because nothing was going right and I thought I was going to miss my flight to Jamaica and almost just gave up. Now I’m on a plane and in route to a beautiful tropical island full of sun and warmth and I’m reminded again how good my life is. Just an hour ago I thought the world was against me! Now I remember! It’s not going to always be easy. Stick to your plans and cross the bumpy paths with a smile on your face. Easier said than done, trust me I know. I am pretty sure I raised my voice at a few airport workers for sending me to the wrong line and making me almost miss my flight. All that anger inside for nothing! Smile smile smile and don’t go another mile without remembering to smile.
I find it funny now looking back…
It’s all quite interesting when I take a look at how pathetic I sounded 2 years ago going through that stupid breakup with just another person I crossed paths. I can guarantee myself and everyone reading this, I WILL NOT EVER BE SO DISCONTENT FROM A BREAKUP- EVER! Life is too damn short! Life is too damn GOOD! Life is Life and you know what, make it shine, make it happy, make it amazing.. You are in control. You are the author, you have the pen, write that shit the way you want it. It’s really that simple, it really is. When you begin feeling sad or depressed stop and think about what thought you are having and be aware of the emotion it is making you feel. You can change that thought, say “I am in control on my thoughts” “I can think whatever I want to think” “I am in control of what emotion I want to feel”, Think about what makes you smile,,, there’s something that made you smile or will make you smile. Maybe it’s how silly you looked when you woke up, maybe it was that funny thing your pet did and you laughed, maybe it’s the simple fact that you have a home, a job, means of transportation, surely you are wearing clothes right, be thankful! Some have non of that… I am greater then I was.
Goodness it doesn’t seem like I have been living here for 9 months already! I could have gotten pregnant and had a child already! Whew, glad that didn’t happen! No babies for this girl. My life seems to have slowed down quite a bit, and I am not happy about this! is this what happens after you turn 30? NO! I will not accept that! I used to go on some adventure every weekend and take vacations often. Lately, it seems like all I do is work and do laundry. If I didn’t have my lil pup Thor I think I would have already gone crazy. I haven’t blogged in a while and I thought if I write down a few things I would like to accomplish in the next few months I have a better chance at making them happen. I need a little more excitement in my life these days so I am soon to be a licensed real estate agent here so I can dabble in that a little on the side. I am making myself go skydiving no later then my birthday at the end of July. I am also planning some sort of road trip up the coast to who knows where, I just know I am going stir crazy and I need more adventure! I haven’t painted, rock climbed, went hiking or anything I used to do to clean my mind in months and it’s time for a change! I guess the first step for change is wanting it, so dammit I WANT IT! Life really is good though, I mean I live in a water front condo, have a great job and great friends who are always there for me and I never go without but I am just craving a little more, nothing materialistic, something deeper. Maybe it’s time I have some reiki work done, time for some balancing… Enjoy of this rant. I CAN AND I WILL
It is interesting looking back at how much has changed in just one year. Last year was the most miserable year of my life! It took moving from an amazing water front condo in Florida to land locked New Mexico, being cheated on for the first time ever by a guy I was madly in love with and learning to be okay with being alone to get me where I am now, which is the happiest I have ever been in my life! When I first decided to move to San Diego I really had no idea what I was getting myself into. I knew nothing about the city and had no idea how amazing and magical this place was. All I knew, my heart was broken and I had to get away from the bad memories that were lingering in Albuquerque and that San Diego was the closest ocean and I knew I wanted to be by the water. Looking back at it all, I understand it was all part of the ride. I have learned to forgive and just be thankful that I made it to where I am now… Life isn’t always easy and remember, when your life feels upside down, it is probably a good thing in the works… Change hurts sometimes but the payoff is so rewarding 🙂
Soo, I have recently started learning to sk8.. I gotta admit, I kind of love it! I feel like a kid again. And we all know, anything to make us feel young again is a win win.. Ya know, when we were kids, we had no worry, no fear, just enjoyed life and never thought about the next thing, always in the NOW… Life sure has a way of finding happiness,,, pretty sure I have finally figured it out! It only took 30 years!!
We spin as the world spins. Don’t spin too quickly and don’t spend to much time worrying about not spinning.. What?! My head is now spinning trying to make since of this random thought that just came to my spinning mind. On a side note, I will be spending the day at the race track again. Hopefully I won’t spend too much to make a little. Spin on my friends. Round and round we go.